Two days before My 18th Birthday I found out I was pregnant, This came as a huge shock, as My boyfriend and I had already fallen out.  I told him about the pregnancy and it didn't go down to well, he called me a liar and said I had made it all up just to get him back, Which was not the case.
I had terrible morning sickness all day at the beginning of my pregnancy, and craving for cheese and pickle sandwiches, ( which now I can not stand) I ate them all day.  Apart from that I was really enjoying being pregnant.
When the date for my Scan came (7th June 2000)I was 16 weeks pregnant and I was very excited, I had arranged for my best friend to come with me, and I still wasn't talking to his Dad. I can remember everyone telling Me I had to drink lots of water then it would be easier for them to see the baby, So I drank all this water as we were in the car on our way there, But Cameron was on my bladder so I just had to go to the toilet when we got there.  after I was so scared that they were going to say they couldn't do the scan so I drank a little more.  We were waiting in the waiting room as if it was Christmas, My friend Louise was just excited. they finally called my name, I suddenly got really worried, it's hard to explain but I had butterflies, I told my friend and she told me to stop being so silly, that everything was ok.
I lay on the bed, and the nice lady said she's just turn the screen away until she found the baby, She then found him, and I remember thinking how excited i was to see my baby for the first time. At first everything was going ok, she showed up the heart and that seems ok, so i began to relax, then she said she needed to measure the baby's head, and she started to do it she said that he was well snuggled down, and we were joking saying that he was keeping warm, then she seemed to change , she went really serious, and said that i needed to empty the rest of my bladder so she could see it that helped the baby to move.  I remember going to the toilet, knowing that something was wrong as i had already emptied my bladder.
When i got back she started again but this time she kept the monitor turned so i couldn't see him.  i knew deep down there was something wrong, but when i asked her she said everything's ok, i just need to get my colleague. When they both came back, she looked and they both told me by baby has Anencephaly I felt as if my world had ended, I just lay there screaming.
I was then showed into a private room, where they said i had to wait to see the consultant.  Then i realised that i couldn't do this so i phoned my mum, who was then crying to, she then came to the hospital. It seems like i was in that room for hours, I was just praying that the consultant would come in and say it was all a mistake and my baby was fine. That didn't happen though. They then referred me to see another consultant for an in-depth scan at another hospital the next day.
That night i went home, and all I kept thinking was they are wrong, my baby is ok, it has to be. They wouldn't let me have a scan picture so that upset me even more, All i wanted was my baby to be ok.
The scan the next day showed the same, that my baby had Anencephaly.  I can remember on the way home seeing lots of pregnant women or women with pushchairs, and all i kept thinking was why Me? I wanted this baby so much.
I still didn't know what was going to happen,  no-one had explain anything to be they just gave me lots of leaflets. So the next day when i went back to see the consultant and he said that i had to have an induced labour as soon as possible, i couldn't take it in, I didn't want to kill my baby, I didn't know what i wanted to do. they all just kept saying i had to have an induced labour if i ever wanted anymore children, as anencephalic babies have wide shoulders and this would cause the baby to rip my insides and it would put my life in danger, and they also said that my baby could even die before then. So i agreed to the induced labour. Even though i felt inside i was doing the wrong thing.
After a 7 hour labour i had my Son Cameron Edward Walter, He was born at 3.05pm and was 11 cms long, and so beautiful. At first i didn't want to see him, i was scared I had this picture in my mind.  I'm so glad that i did see him though he was so beautiful, he had my shape lips, and nose. He was perfect, apart from his head which i didn't even notice at first, because he was my son and I loved him so much.
I wasn't allowed to go to Cameron's funeral, as it had to be done by the hospital has he was so small, this really upset me, and now i don't have a remembrance place to visit him, But Now i believe that he is with me always.